BAD blogger

I have been a bad blogger!  Sorry for the delays, what can I say life sometimes gets in the way!  I guess I should say hobbies have been getting in my way.  I have started making hair bows.  I just saw them one day and decided I could do that, so I did!  I have made several different styles and I have even branched out into making bow holders to hang on the walls. Here are some pictures so you can see!

Onto baby stuff.  Nothing is happening.  Nothing.at.all.  I am wondering how long to keep trying.  I know we have not even done all the testing we can do, but I think I am torn on what I want to do.  Maybe we are just destined to be childless people.  I don't know.  I have thought about fostering but then I think it would be terrible to love a child and have it taken away, I don't know if my heart could handle that.  Adoption is so terribly expensive and we seem to be the type of folks that can't catch a break financially so we probably wouldn't get any type of assistance.  So here we are.  No further than we were almost 2 years ago.  The only difference now is that it doesn't feel so life or death.  I think I might just be reaching the point of: ok, so we are childless, let's make the most of it.  Or at least I am there today.  Tomorrow, I might be OHMYGOSH, I can't live without a baby!  That's the joy of trying to get pregnant...the ups and the downs (sarcasm is my second language).

I am getting ready to do our taxes at some point soon.  I know it sounds fun and you really want to be me, but I am destined to have ALL the fun!  Don't be jealous!  I kid, I kid!  I really don't mind doing our taxes.  They are not terribly complicated, but sometimes frustration gets the better of me.   It is just so time consuming.  I paid to have them done one year.  When it costs you more to have them done than you get back...so not worth it!

Here is my parting thought:
Faith, it does not make things easy, it makes them possible. Luke 1:37

Another weekend gone

I love the weekends, but why oh why do they go by so fast?!  I am secretly hoping for a snow day, shhh, don't tell anyone!  I could use just one day at home while D is at work!
So here is where I am in the whole baby making process.  I am currently waiting to ovulate.  I should, if all goes right, ovulate within the next few days.  I am just going to say that it gets hard to be in the mood all.the.time!  Only a few more days and I can rest...lol!
Diet update: I have lost 8.3 lbs in two weeks on South Beach!  We got our elliptical this week and I have been using it too.  I forgot how much I don't love exercise, but I am doing it!  I have to keep telling myself that I am doing this for a baby!  I know this is short, but it is bedtime here in my world!  I hope you all have a great Monday!

What's up?

Not much, that's what.  Just chilling after a wonderful day off work.  D and I did some shopping and came home to just relax.  It was really nice.  His new job is awesome!  He is home every night and has most of the same holidays that I have off.  There have been some good things going on.  I have started the South Beach diet.  I started on Wednesday and my scales are already showing a 4 lbs weight loss!  I am hoping that it goes well for the next few weeks.  My doctor suggested even if I lose 10% of my body weight that it might help with ovulation and hormone levels.  So here goes nothing!  D and I ordered an elliptical because she had the nerve to tell me that exercise was going to help me...whatever!  :)  Ok, I might have known that, but I don't love exercise, but I am going to do it!  I don't mind the elliptical and with it being in my own house I have no excuses!  Plus,they are going to deliver it and put it together!  Yay!  D and I discussed putting it together ourselves but decided with him not getting home from work until 6:30 or 7:00 every night, that it would be too much for him to try to do after work.  I could probably do it, but it might be too heavy for me to move around by myself.

On another note, I am excited that American Idol is coming back soon!

Also, I had my review at work and I got a 6.6 out of 7!  The only areas that I did not get a 7 on were areas that were not in my control, such as facilities, etc.  I am pretty proud!

Last week...

Last week I went to have my annual exam on the 3rd...yay.  According to my chart, I ovulated on the 30th.  I had been having some SERIOUS pain on my right side.  The doctor was concerned that I ruptured cyst on my right side.  She wanted me to have a vaginal ultrasound, so awesome!  So I went to have it done and she told me that if I had a cyst, it had taken care of itself, but that I did in fact, ovulate!  Woo hoo!  So now it is the waiting game.  My chart looks awesome which makes for a very long 2 week wait!  Fingers crossed that this is it for us!

What I learned in 2011

It's officially a new year (and my birthday...yay!), so I thought I would compile a list of things I learned this year.  I haven't thought this through, it might be a short list...haha!

1. Independence is great, but having someone to lean on is even better.
2. It's ok to tell people no.
3. I learned how to sew this year, it has been a really fun hobby!
4. Even though you don't always get what you want when you want, there is usually a silver lining, you just might have to look for it.
5. Have a job you love is a huge bonus, no matter where you do it.
6. Being kind to everyone really does pay off, even if it just makes you feel better in that minute.
7. I am not going to please everyone all the time and I have to just let it go.
8. Even though people don't always know the right thing to say, it doesn't mean they don't care.
9. Infertility is an awful plague, I hope to find a cure one of these days and have a take home baby.
10. God is in control no matter how many times I take my troubles away from Him.

That is a good start.  I suppose I could always add more as I think of them, but this pretty much sums it up.  I hope this year find you with all that you want and need.  Just remember that everyone is fighting some kind of battle even if you would never be able to tell it from the outside.  I hope you all have a wonderfully blessed New Year!

Holiday Fun

I love the holidays.  I love the feelings that come with them, the memories they bring and the goodwill that strangers show to each other.

I also love making the cookies, candy and all the other treats that come along with it.  I had my friend and her little boy over to make cookies.  It was so fun!  He was very into rolling out the cookies and cutting them out!  Icing them was another story.  He iced about 3 cookies and he was finished.  He then proceeded to suck all the icing out of the bags.  It was hilarious!  I am not sure what time she got him to bed after all that sugar!

I found a recipe for powdered sugar icing that reminded me of the icing on the cookies from the doughnut shop from my hometown.  It was awesome!  It made me happy! 
Here it is:
1cup of powdered sugar
1 tablespoon plus 1 1/2 teaspoons of milk
1 teaspoon of vanilla
add food coloring as desired
Mix and spread on the cooled cookies.  When the icing dries, it is shiny and smooth!  Plus it tastes super yummy!

Ugly Cry

We had a special musical guest at church today.  Just let me say his voice was wonderful and his songs were beautiful.  One of the songs he sang was about a couple where the husband told his wife before he died that he would draw an arrow on the banks of the River Jordon pointing the way to heaven and he would wait for her to go and meet Jesus.  So of course being the emotional train wreck that I am these days, I flat out ugly cried.  It just meant so much to me since we lost my grandpa last year at Christmastime.  He and my grandma had been married 67 years and it has been such a loss for our whole family, but especially her.  Right before my grandpa died, he and my grandmother had been in separate hospitals for various reasons. My grandpa got out first and when my mom took him to visit my grandma, his first words to her, "Where have you been?  I have been looking all over for you!"  Another time when he was in the hospital, we took my grandma to visit and everyone else had gone out of the room and I was just standing right outside the door, I overheard them talking.  She was standing beside the bed and he was holding her hand.  He told her that he had been thinking about her.  She asked him don't you have anything better to think about?  His sweet reply was, no I don't reckon I do.  I hope that D and I are as happy and as in love as they were for 67 years.  Just so you know, I cried again while writing this.  I am trying to brighten my mood with Christmas music...but then hearing about a baby that had no crib for a bed brings tears to my eyes too!  Emotional train wreck I say!