Thursday, July 19, 2012

GRRRR

I just got home from the beach, which was wonderful, but man life kicks you in the gut after vacation.  I noticed D was not so talkative on the phone while I was away.  I found out why when I got home.  He told me that he is probably going to be fired from his job because someone filed a false complaint with his boss's boss.  Awesome.  D has had a run of several jobs, but none of which he has left before having another one.  I don't know what we are going to do.  I am to the point of just throwing my hands up and crying.  Not going to solve anything, not going to make me feel better, but I think that's all I have right now. 

I am beginning to feel like Job.  This was from my minister's devotional today, it couldn't have been more fitting for us. 
“God’s voice thunders in marvelous ways; He does great things beyond our understanding” (Job 37:5)

“Why Me Lord? I don’t understand; I try to serve you to the best of my ability and everything falls apart. Can you explain to me Lord why bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people?”
  ...No man in scripture lost more or experienced any more pain than Job. He lost his family, his livestock, his servants, and all his earthly wealth. If this wasn’t enough, his body was covered in boils from his head to his toes. Job’s wife even said to him, “Why don’t you just curse God and die?” (v. 9)

Listen carefully to Job’s answer to his wife: “You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble? (v. 10) Job may not have understood all that was taking place in his life, but he knew who was in control.

I am doing my very best to remember that it is not me in control of my future but God.  I have been praying that D find happiness and peace in a profession.  So here is how I am choosing to look at this situation.  God does not close one door without opening another one, so hopefully if D does lose his job, another one will find it's way to him and this is God's way of making it happen.