Friday, May 31, 2013

It's happening!!!

I am still in shock that everything is going to fall into place!  My insurance is going to cover my surgery!  I am in shock!  I called to schedule it today and it is going to be June 11!  OMG, I need to breathe!  I have NEVER been one to get excited about surgery, anesthesia, hospitals, etc. but I am stoked about this one!  I am unsure of what I want them to find.  Do I want them to find something so we can "fix" it?  Do I want them to not find something and go from there?  I don't know.  All I know is that it is all going to be ok, no matter what.

I *think* my mom is going to come and help me for a few days afterwards.  D stresses about stuff so I would almost rather he just go to work, but that's not fair to him.  I want him to be there, but I can't promise I won't snap at him if he gets all drama queen on me!  :)

I am more concerned about Benny jumping on me after surgery than anything else.  He is a great dog but he just gets super excited about everything and everyone!  He just can't help himself!

Now for some pictures!
Here is a small chest of drawers that D's parents gave us.  It was his when he was a!

Here are some of my sweet boy:

Benny is a hoarder, this is what I walk over every morning:

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

My first RE visit!

It went well! I really liked Dr. H. He wants to start with a Laproscopy (a minor surgery) and check out everything internally and while he is in there, he wants to laser drill my ovaries. I am not exactly sure what that entails but I will go for it if I get a baby! He also thinks he will be able to get my insurance to pay for it. He wants to start a medicated cycle with Letrozole (femara) and Timed Intercourse. Then if that does not work, we will do Inter Uterine Insemination (IUI) with injectible medicines. If I am not pregnant by the end of the year we will move into IVF. HOLY CRAP!!! We have a plan!

Monday, May 6, 2013

Life gets in the way

It is the time of year for a teacher that the whirlwind starts!  The beginning and the end of the year are the hardest busiest time of year for everyone!  I am exhausted all the time, it feels as if I go home eat supper and go to bed in between all the evening activities that I have to do for work!

Here are some updates:
  • D's cat died.  He is still in mourning.  He has been pitiful and quite upset with me since I cleaned and put away the litter boxes.  Like didn't talk to me for 2 weeks mad.
  • I finally got to see my parents since they were in Florida for what seemed like forever!
  • I feel like there are more, but my mind is

I finally made the appointment with the RE.  I know, I know...I have had the referral for months.  It was a hard call to make, but one I know I needed to do since I was bombarded with newborns one day and went home and cried.  I mean seriously, who does that?!  I also stared longingly at a beautiful newborn at church one day and was really glad when they had to move to another seat because I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

After I made the appointment, I felt like a load had been lifted from my chest.  I called D to let him know and he was super sweet, reassuring me that in no way did he blame me, think this was my fault or have any ill feelings about our next step.  He also went on to say that if a biological child is not in God's plan for us then maybe we are supposed to adopt the next Lebron!  I am so glad that he is on board with all of this and that he is not being a turd like he was when we had to do his SA!  I couldn't handle that again.

I also told D that we need to check out budget and trim any fat we have because the next steps are expensive ones.  He agreed, so we will see how it goes.

I have a wonderful support system and I am so blessed in so many ways!  I always know I am never in this journey alone, so that is a great relief to me.