I am not sure why this is such a tough time...well, I guess I do. I started my period today. I don't know why I am disappointed, we only had sex twice this month. Neither time was in my fertile week, so yeah...
I should be happy, I just got home from a great vacation in Hilton Head. The weather was beautiful but chilly, we were on the beach in sweatshirts and pants! We had a great time riding bikes, playing putt putt and listening to the waves. There is nothing better than the salty sea air and breeze!
I guess I should be happy that I didn't get my period on the vacation.
I am sad, just sad. I am sad because things are not how I had planned. You find someone you love, you get married, then you have a baby. But it just isn't happening. I am sad that money is what is the main hold up for us. Why should it be so expensive to have a baby?! I am sad because my insurance doesn't cover any kind of fertility treatments, blood work, or meds. I am just sad.
I know this is not the case, but sometimes I feel like I am being punished for something. I try to be a good person, I go to church, I am a school teacher for pity's sake. I think we would be good parents. We both have good jobs, a house, and cars. Why can't we have a baby?
I know this has been a total whine fest. Sorry readers.