Wednesday, February 22, 2012

BAD blogger

I have been a bad blogger!  Sorry for the delays, what can I say life sometimes gets in the way!  I guess I should say hobbies have been getting in my way.  I have started making hair bows.  I just saw them one day and decided I could do that, so I did!  I have made several different styles and I have even branched out into making bow holders to hang on the walls. Here are some pictures so you can see!

Onto baby stuff.  Nothing is happening.  I am wondering how long to keep trying.  I know we have not even done all the testing we can do, but I think I am torn on what I want to do.  Maybe we are just destined to be childless people.  I don't know.  I have thought about fostering but then I think it would be terrible to love a child and have it taken away, I don't know if my heart could handle that.  Adoption is so terribly expensive and we seem to be the type of folks that can't catch a break financially so we probably wouldn't get any type of assistance.  So here we are.  No further than we were almost 2 years ago.  The only difference now is that it doesn't feel so life or death.  I think I might just be reaching the point of: ok, so we are childless, let's make the most of it.  Or at least I am there today.  Tomorrow, I might be OHMYGOSH, I can't live without a baby!  That's the joy of trying to get pregnant...the ups and the downs (sarcasm is my second language).

I am getting ready to do our taxes at some point soon.  I know it sounds fun and you really want to be me, but I am destined to have ALL the fun!  Don't be jealous!  I kid, I kid!  I really don't mind doing our taxes.  They are not terribly complicated, but sometimes frustration gets the better of me.   It is just so time consuming.  I paid to have them done one year.  When it costs you more to have them done than you get not worth it!

Here is my parting thought:
Faith, it does not make things easy, it makes them possible. Luke 1:37


  1. I feel like I could have written what you wrote about baby stuff. I am on the exact same wavelength as you right now....wavering between thinking about living childless, fostering, adoption, our lack of funding for adoption, trying to get pregnant. It's like a never ending cycle of thoughts!

    1. You are so right about the never ending cycle of thoughts. I know that I have not gone through nearly the extent of so many and then I feel guilty about thinking of giving up. It's like if I haven't tried everything there is to try that I haven't tried hard enough, if that makes any sense at all! I hope that we both find some peace in whatever decision we make.