Life gets in the way

It is the time of year for a teacher that the whirlwind starts!  The beginning and the end of the year are the hardest busiest time of year for everyone!  I am exhausted all the time, it feels as if I go home eat supper and go to bed in between all the evening activities that I have to do for work!

Here are some updates:

• D's cat died.  He is still in mourning.  He has been pitiful and quite upset with me since I cleaned and put away the litter boxes.  Like didn't talk to me for 2 weeks mad.
• I finally got to see my parents since they were in Florida for what seemed like forever!
• I feel like there are more, but my mind is blank...lol

I finally made the appointment with the RE.  I know, I know...I have had the referral for months.  It was a hard call to make, but one I know I needed to do since I was bombarded with newborns one day and went home and cried.  I mean seriously, who does that?!  I also stared longingly at a beautiful newborn at church one day and was really glad when they had to move to another seat because I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

After I made the appointment, I felt like a load had been lifted from my chest.  I called D to let him know and he was super sweet, reassuring me that in no way did he blame me, think this was my fault or have any ill feelings about our next step.  He also went on to say that if a biological child is not in God's plan for us then maybe we are supposed to adopt the next Lebron James...lol!  I am so glad that he is on board with all of this and that he is not being a turd like he was when we had to do his SA!  I couldn't handle that again.

I also told D that we need to check out budget and trim any fat we have because the next steps are expensive ones.  He agreed, so we will see how it goes.

I have a wonderful support system and I am so blessed in so many ways!  I always know I am never in this journey alone, so that is a great relief to me.