I didn't think I would be a blogger, but alas, here I am! First off, let me start by introducing myself. I am KLN (names not give to protect the not so innocent!) =) I am 32 and have been married to D since 2009. We have been trying for our first child since May of 2010. I thought that I would get pregnant after the first few months, silly me! If I had only known the journey we started would entail more than I ever imagined!
I have known my whole life that I wanted to be a mother. Don't get me wrong, I have enjoyed my nieces and nephews. They have been my joy and light, but I want to be a mother! I want that baby in my arms that looks up into my eyes with nothing but love and acceptance, knowing that I will meet it's every need for as long as I live. After 10 months of trying, which I know is a relatively short time and it can take the "average" couple up to a year, blah, blah, blah, I had my first meltdown over the fear of not getting pregnant. I am not sure if it was hitting 10 cycles trying, OMG, we are in double digits!, or what, but there I was, crying. That is certainly not my style. I am very positive person, the glass is always half full. But there were the tears. They didn't last long, but poor D!
You know the crazy part, I take my temperature, I check my cervical mucus, I ovulate, we have sex...yet I am not pregnant. I think it has something to do with timing or lack of timing for a few cycles. It was one of those things that no one has control over, D had to be out of town, one of us was ill, etc. Those things are known as life, so be it. But being the control freak, er, I mean, proactive person I am, I have bought Ovulation Predictor Kits, Pre-Seed, a sperm friendly lube, and some Home Pregnancy Tests--remember that glass half full remark! =) So here we go! Bring it on!
On a side note, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome in December. I started taking Metformin in February to help control the symptoms. It does have some side effects which are manageable, but irritating. I was also very deficient in Vitamin D so I am taking a supplement to boost that. Oh yeah and a prenatal vitamin. I hope I have all my bases covered!
So here is to cycle 10! I hope this is it for me and D, but if it is not, we will continue on our adventure, making the most of it as we go!