My first Blog!

I didn't think I would be a blogger, but alas, here I am!  First off, let me start by introducing myself.  I am KLN (names not give to protect the not so innocent!)  =)  I am 32 and  have been married to D since 2009.  We have been trying for our first child since May of 2010.  I thought that I would get pregnant after the first few months, silly me!  If I had only known the journey we started would entail more than I ever imagined! 

I have known my whole life that I wanted to be a mother.  Don't get me wrong, I have enjoyed my nieces and nephews.  They have been my joy and light, but I want to be a mother!  I want that baby in my arms that looks up into my eyes with nothing but love and acceptance, knowing that I will meet it's every need for as long as I live.  After 10 months of trying, which I know is a relatively short time and it can take the "average" couple up to a year, blah, blah, blah, I had my first meltdown over the fear of not getting pregnant.  I am not sure if it was hitting 10 cycles trying, OMG, we are in double digits!, or what, but there I was, crying.  That is certainly not my style.  I am very positive person, the glass is always half full.  But there were the tears.  They didn't last long, but poor D!

You know the crazy part, I take my temperature, I check my cervical mucus, I ovulate, we have sex...yet I am not pregnant.  I think it has something to do with timing or lack of timing for a few cycles.  It was one of those things that no one has control over, D had to be out of town, one of us was ill, etc.  Those things are known as life, so be it.  But being the control freak, er, I mean, proactive person I am, I have bought Ovulation Predictor Kits, Pre-Seed, a sperm friendly lube, and some Home Pregnancy Tests--remember that glass half full remark!  =)  So here we go!  Bring it on!

On a side note, I was diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome in December.  I started taking Metformin in February to help control the symptoms.  It does have some side effects which are manageable, but irritating.  I was also very deficient in Vitamin D so I am taking a supplement to boost that.  Oh yeah and a prenatal vitamin.  I hope I have all my bases covered!

So here is to cycle 10!  I hope this is it for me and D, but if it is not, we will continue on our adventure, making the most of it as we go!