It has been one of those days where I have struggled to let my light shine. I lost my temper at work today, which I HATE. I work with precious kiddos and I raised my voice, not something I like to do at.all! I have no excuse that's worth giving. Sometimes they know how to push every button to push you over the edge and I fell off the cliff today. The beginning of my tumble from the cliff was starting my period. Awesome. I knew it was coming since everything has been bringing me to tears, I have a gigantic zit beside my nose, and all I want to do is eat. So it shouldn't be a surprise, but somehow it always takes my breath away. Because no matter how I "try" not to get my hopes up about being pregnant, it doesn't work.
Now I will tell you all a secret, each cycle I calculate when I would be 12 weeks along so I can start planning on how I would tell people. Lame. So the moral of this story is don't believe me when I tell you that I try not to get my hopes up each cycle because I am a lying liar who lies.
I go for my annual exam on Friday. I hope my period is over by that point, which it should be but of course this will probably be the period that last 7 days with a heavy flow! I have no indication that this is going to be the case other than my crappy mood. I am sure it is going to be my normal 2 day period that will be finished by Friday. I will probably still be spotting but that shouldn't be a big deal, right? I have always planned my exams around my period but this one kind of came up and bit me in the behind....lol! And of course this is the time that I have the perfect 28 day cycle!
Enough complaining on my part. I have good things going on in my life too. I am going to be presenting with my boss at a summer conference which will bring in an extra $300! That is super exciting for me, I am not sure what I will do with the money yet, but I am sure I will figure something out!
I hope tomorrow renews my light enough to let it shine!